I was tweeting earlier how funny I thought it was that GACKT keeps avoiding any mention of the YFCz breakup so far, and this got a lot of people talking about it. And I just felt like people may want a place to kind of... vent or simply talk about the breakup. Anytime something major, like a breakup, happens, people naturally get emotional about it, and I don't think it's healthy to let these rather negative feelings boiling beneath the surface, so to speak... ^^;;
I also figured I'll explain why I'm personally not upset about his silence.
I could've made this post in ohgacktyoudidnt instead, but I didn't, specifically for the reason that this is simply MY perspective and MY feelings regarding the issue, and they are NOT FACTS. I am not GACKT (no, really), I am not his friends, I am not his staff, I don't even have any insider knowledge on the matter, so please DO NOT SPREAD ANYTHING I SAY HERE AS FACTS IN ANY WAY.
I'm not upset by GACKT's silence because, first of all, I wasn't as attached to YFCz as many others in the fandom are. I enjoyed their music, their antics, their dedication, and more than anything, I enjoyed seeing GACKT having fun with them. And it was shocking just because GACKT had talked about keeping the band going for 10 years at the beginning.
But I am, first and foremost, a fan of GACKT as a solo artist. So, if this is what had to happen, for any reason, then I accept that and hope for the best for all the members.
And second of all, I'm not upset because I simply do not know what may have gone down behind the scenes that led to the breakup. They say it's a positive breakup, and I do believe that. But could there be other factors involved? Maybe? Maybe not? Nobody knows. I think fans are upset because they feel like GACKT doesn't care about their feelings. And that is completely understandable and I can totally sympathize, and there's nothing wrong with feeling frustrated and upset about it. So, please, don't think that I'm patronizing or making light of the feelings of upset fans. I do get it. I'm just personally not mad at him, even though I do agree that he should say something about it publicly as the leader of YFCz. And I have been quite upset and offended by some things that GACKT did/said in the past, and I have been vocal about it, so don't think I'm one of those fans who think he can do no wrong or that he shouldn't be criticized for any reason.
Do you really think he wanted the band to break up? Is it really what he wanted? Isn't it possible that, despite not wanting to, it was the only reasonable/logical thing to do for all involved?
I have the impression that he doesn't handle deep disappointments very well, especially if he was the major part of it. In the past, he made some snarky comments when faced with problems (e.g. The GACKT blog entry he wrote regarding the issues surrounding the Atsugi-Sai (thick-layer live), which didn't sound sincere enough in its apology and ended up costing him the loss of a lot of Japanese fans), but this time, he's keeping silence, withdrawn from the issue. Why?
Isn't it possible that this was a huge disappointment to him? After all, didn't he love the band? I remember reading somewhere (and I tried to find it but couldn't..., sorry... >.>) where GACKT had briefly mentioned the 'grownup circumstances' the people around him were trying to push against him regarding YFCz, and how he sounded frustrated by that. And this wasn't too long before the breakup announcement. (Now, if I'm remembering this incorrectly, I do apologize. Again, do not spread this as fact unless you find this info yourself.) Isn't it possible that he wanted to keep the band alive, and it's very difficult for him to go through the disappointment right now?
I mean, he's got SO much on his plate because of the MOON SAGA play, which apparently isn't going too well right now. And in the midst of it, he also needs to give an amazing performance in the BD live.
So, it's not so much that I don't think he has the responsibility to say something about the breakup.
But it's more like, imagining what he may be going through right now and because of how utterly silent he's been about it, I just want to support him as he goes through this difficult transitional and creative time of his career instead of being upset.
I see him as a brilliant man, with many flaws. Because of the fact that he's naturally a very unique person as well as the fact that he's been a superstar living in his superstar bubble for most of his adult life, I get the feeling that his flaws are also rather unique and unlike those of ordinary people who've had to deal with ordinary responsibilities (like us :P). Again, I'm not saying we should excuse him for not fulfilling his responsibilities like an adult man, but I think it helps us understand a little..., doesn't it?
We tend to think of him as a completely disciplined, stoic man. And he is. But he's also only human with a heart that aches.
The very fact that he keeps not mentioning the breakup in itself means a lot to me, you know? Why wouldn't he mention it?
Right now, he just has to focus 150% on the play, and perhaps he's having a very difficult time facing the breakup and actually talking about it? Isn't this a possibility? Would you look at his silence a little differently if that's the case?
Really, who knows?
Like I said, these are just ALL MY PERSONAL GUESSES AND FEELINGS regarding the issue, none of it is a confirmed fact. And I honestly don't know what happened, if anything, behind the breakup beyond what Takumi has already said. Maybe nothing.
But to come back to why I thought it was funny/interesting that he, again, didn't say anything about the breakup in the latest G blog or LINE, it's because it was another confirmation, to me personally, that he really did have deep feelings about the breakup that he couldn't afford to face right now, when he just needs to keep moving forward and focus 150% on the play.
Anyway, so, these are my thoughts on the breakup.
But if you want to complain/rant or simply express your feelings/thoughts about the breakup, you're welcome to do so here!
Like I said, I completely understand the frustrations many of you feel, and am hoping that this post can help release some of those feelings. =^^=
Thanks, dear Irina ( mind_cell), for chatting with me earlier, which helped me organize my thoughts on the matter. ;3
EDIT: The Devil King was on Twitter earlier, and he said that he would talk about the details of the breakup later, but that his feelings about the breakup aren't sorted out just yet. He's also confirmed that YFCz will be responsible for the music for the MOON SAGA play, and great pieces of music are coming out. He also HINTED that this breakup is for the current lineup of members. Didn't say anything concrete or specific, but I think there's a possibility they may reunite with some member changes. But again, he only HINTED at this very briefly, so nothing definite or concrete. We'll wait for the details (patiently), won't we? ^^
My GACKTish Days
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- YFCz Breakup, Wanna Talk About It?